{"id":185,"date":"2009-10-02T07:35:00","date_gmt":"2009-10-02T14:35:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.celiamcbride.com\/?p=185"},"modified":"2009-10-02T07:35:00","modified_gmt":"2009-10-02T14:35:00","slug":"look-back-in-anger","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.celiamcbride.com\/?p=185","title":{"rendered":"Look Back in Anger"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>And what of anger?<\/p>\n<p>I have heard that anger is really fear in disguise. I have heard that depression is unexpressed anger. I have even heard that cancer is rage unreleased.<\/p>\n<p>For many years I believed it was not &#8220;spiritual&#8221; to be angry. The truth is, we cannot really be living the Spirit as long as we are denying our anger.<\/p>\n<p>I was an angry child. I like to say I was in a bad mood for 27 years. For most of my twenties, when I was trying to be spiritual, I repressed my anger, stuffed it, pretended it wasn&#8217;t there.<\/p>\n<p>Ten years ago, when I finally got on the healing path, I had to learn first to admit that I was angry and then how to express it in a healthy way.<\/p>\n<p>There is a line from the Gus Van Sant film &#8220;Milk&#8221; starring Sean Penn as Harvey Milk, the first openly gay man to be elected to public office in California, and it keeps coming back to me.<\/p>\n<p>There is a huge crowd of people in the gay Castro District, where &#8220;Milk&#8221; is mostly set, and those involved in the protest have just experienced what feels like one more terrible injustice.<\/p>\n<p>Milk and his <span style=\"font-style: italic;\">compadres<\/span> fear a riot. He gets on the bull horn and he says, &#8220;I know you&#8217;re angry&#8230;&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>And here we expect him to say, &#8220;BUT&#8230;&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;<span style=\"font-style: italic;\">But<\/span> it&#8217;s okay, <span style=\"font-style: italic;\">but<\/span> don&#8217;t worry, <span style=\"font-style: italic;\">but<\/span> it will be alright.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>But he doesn&#8217;t.<\/p>\n<p>Harvey Milk says, &#8220;<span style=\"font-style: italic;\">I&#8217;M<\/span> ANGRY!&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>And then they walk, together, in anger and in peace, to continue proclaiming their cause.<\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s an incredibly moving moment.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m writing about anger this morning because I&#8217;M ANGRY.<\/p>\n<p>It was a little thing that made me realize I had some unexpressed anger looking to be extracted from my body, just a little thing that wouldn&#8217;t work properly, a thing that was stuck and I was trying to un-stick it, just a small <span style=\"font-style: italic;\">thing<\/span>.<\/p>\n<p>The more I tried to make it work, and couldn&#8217;t, the more frustrated I got.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;M ANGRY.<\/p>\n<p>Okay, boy, wow. Awareness comes first. Then action: time to do something about that!<\/p>\n<p>And I will. I will go within, where the answers lie, I will share with someone who has wisdom about such things, and I will find a way to express the anger and get it out of my body.<\/p>\n<p>Howling in the bush always helps.<\/p>\n<p>Inspiring Message of the Day: My anger is valid. It needs to be expressed in a healthy way. Identifying it, sharing it and then releasing it will bring me back to peace.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>And what of anger? I have heard that anger is really fear in disguise. I have heard that depression is unexpressed anger. I have even heard that cancer is rage unreleased. For many years I believed it was not &#8220;spiritual&#8221; to be angry. 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