Dearest Readers,<\/p>\n
Something excellent has happened. I’ve made a decision<\/a>. (Sound of trumpets, fanfare and general exultant cheering.) Hallelujah.<\/p>\n The making of this particular decision has been a vastly interesting journey. Far too long a story to post here but now that I’ve made it the relief is great. And the fear is big. “OMG, now I have to do it<\/em>.”<\/p>\n To do “it”, in this case, is to both direct and <\/em>act in Last Stop for Miles<\/a><\/em>, the feature film I have in development. Crazy, possibly. My destiny, most certain.<\/p>\n It’s been 16 years since I first wrote the play by the same name, 8 years since I took a crack at the first draft of the screenplay, 4 years since my sister and I shot the short film<\/a> in Whitehorse, 3 years since it had its premiere and a number of subsequent festival screenings, and five months since I was awarded Development Funding from Telefilm Canada<\/a>, which newly opened wide the doors to production.<\/p>\n It has always been my vision to direct and act in my work. I don’t know why. I only know it is a part of who I am. We are a strange species, the self-director. There aren’t many of us. And we are criticized and analysed and generally thought to be egomaniacal control freaks. But we just are what we are.<\/p>\n Oh, I’ve been willing to change, let go and be directed. I’ve been willing to let the vision die completely for the sake of the film. I finally abandoned the idea and listened to all the sage advice (“Don’t do it, you’re insane.”) because it seemed like the right thing; the wisest<\/em> thing.<\/p>\n But no. The vision will not die. It has kept returning, ever so gently, prodding around inside my cells. This you must do. <\/em>And so, I now believe, to direct and act this film is no less than the Arching Rainbow of Destiny. (In the understated words of my filmmaking mentor.)<\/p>\n The clincher came a couple of weeks ago. I heard from a friend that a woman I’d met with, a potential producing partner, found my lack of conviction with regard to the film “wishy-washy.” I’d told her the story of wanting to act and direct and my subsequent letting go of the idea. Apparently I’d capped the story by saying, “So I guess I’ll just direct it.” She found this off-putting.<\/p>\n Where was my conviction? Lost in fear. Everyone was warning me against the idea and they must be right. I must be wrong. So I listened. I became willing to let go. “I am amenable, flexible, soft.”<\/p>\n This is a good affirmation for me. It’s important for me to practice letting go because I do tend toward egomaniacal controlling behaviour. But in retrospect I now see that I had <\/em>to listen to the warnings, give the vision up, say to good-bye to it. I had to<\/em> in order for it to come back, quietly, then loudly and clearly through the critical voice of another.<\/p>\n Because now I know. Now there is no doubt. Now I have conviction.<\/p>\n Hallelujah.<\/p>\n Inspiring Message of the Day:<\/strong><\/em> What is that expression? If you love something, set it free. If it loves you it will come back? How about, if you can’t make a decision, let it go. The answer will be revealed when you are ready to receive it.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Dearest Readers, Something excellent has happened. I’ve made a decision. (Sound of trumpets, fanfare and general exultant cheering.) Hallelujah. 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