Dearest Readers,
How are you doing? Really, how are you? My own emotions have been on a rollercoaster ride, mostly stabilized in the last week, but definitely up and down. When I am up, I wonder about you, how you’re feeling about the changes in your personal life and in the world, how you’re coping with it all.
When I have these moments, when I wonder about you and if you’re okay, my own fear and anxiety decrease. Thinking of others is such a healing practice. So is caring for others. As the spiritual care worker in a long-term care facility, I am considered an ‘essential service’, and when I am with a resident, there is no thought of myself. The fearful, anxious thoughts disappear.
Deep Presence brings relief.
If you read the last Letter, you will remember my account of the Woodpecker, appearing at just the right moments in time to remind me that the Universe is as conscious of me as I am of It. Three days ago, I arrived back at the house after an endorphin-producing run to the rat-a-tat-tat of the Woodpecker. She was in the tree above our driveway and I stood and watched her hammer her head into the trunk at rapid-fire speed.
Impeccable Timing brings relief.
The above photograph of the snowdrops is evidence of a miracle, really, since the entire front garden of our house was dug up last fall to fix a leaky basement. All of the soil was removed, creating a 6-or-7-foot trench around the wall of the house. The dirt that had been removed was then dumped back in the trench to re-fill it. The result was a big, uneven pile of mud. Now, after a long winter, those snowdrops you see in the photo pushed up through the disturbed ground in the exact same spot as they always do, year-after-year. How?
Life Finds a Way.
In times of crisis, in times of despair, in times of great fear and crippling anxiety, I look to these experiences of Deep Presence, Impeccable Timing and the Unstoppable Life-Force Energy to keep me going and to keep me growing.
And I think of you, and hope that you are accessing your own inner resources and outer practices to keep going and growing, one moment at a time.
From the Fires of Love,
Celia
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We’re Alive!
Dearest Readers,
After retiring from showbiz a number of years ago and then weaning myself off the dubious pleasure of award shows, I recently found myself catching snippets of the 2019 Golden Globes while staying with some friends. The happy couple was ensconced in their den and I, busy with other things, would come and go from the room to chat with them while the stars of Hollywood made their speeches and showed off their formal duds on the TV.
During one of my brief stop-ins to the den, Jeff Bridges was called to the stage to receive a lifetime achievement award. He was suitably humble and excited and after the requisite thank-yous to his agents and lawyers and colleagues and family, he shouted out his exuberance for life, waving his award in the air while saying, “We’re all alive, right here, right now, this is happening. We’re alive!” (You can jump right to 3:49 for that particular moment.)
Bridge’s words came out so joyfully, in such an unaffected and sweetly, awkward manner, that my friends and I could not help but laugh. Who does that? This wasn’t an arm-waving celebration of personal victory (for many before him have done that little dance with their newly-acquired statue) but a celebration of our aliveness, the astonishing, undeniable reality of our Being.
His jubilant affirmation reminded me of a spoken-word poem I’d written in the 90s, listing all the times I could have died and ending each account with the words, ‘I’m alive.’ One of the concluding stanzas goes like this:
i was born
i was given this gift
this life overwhelming
this blessing this hope
i’m alive
And the final stanza:
we’re alive
you’re alive
i’m alive
The poem remains my own hand-waving exclamation of childish wonder at the miracle of our inexplicable existence. Like Jeff Bridges, I am in total awe that This is Happening, right here, right now.
And yet not too many of us are gleefully whooping about the mind-blowing fact of our actuality. Humans can go through hours, days, weeks, months and years utterly asleep to ourselves and the absolute mystery and phenomenon of It All.
Not only that, many people feel that being alive is not a miracle to be celebrated but a sentence to endure. I know that feeling well and understand that it can be a quantum leap to get from ‘I’m done’ to being amazed by the fact that I am a breathing body with trillions of cells, held to the earth by a puzzling gravitational pull, traveling around the sun at unfathomable speeds in a universe that may or may not have had a beginning and may or may not have an end.
But this is one way to make the leap: Be amazed.
Be amazed by the breath. This constant companion, always there, coming in and going out of the body, whether I pay attention to it or not. There. It. Is.
we’ve got lungs cleansing breath is the life force giver
we’re alive
Be amazed by the weather (even while you’re complaining about it). How does snow fall from a cloud? How does a lake freeze over? How does the sun warm the skin even in frigid temperatures?
we’re rich without a penny
we’re alive
Be amazed by others. That person I’m judging has an entire story, a family history, a complex emotional life, common fears, desires and needs. That person is trying, just like I am and just like you are, to meet the challenges life brings.
we’re alive
Sometimes, when I’m riding on a bus or a train or sitting in an airplane, I will take a moment to open myself up to all of the people around me, imagining their individual lives, realizing that each of them has the same, full, rich complexity of human experience as I do. With this exercise, these easily-ignored strangers become my human family, fellow travelers on the Path of Life.
And I am amazed.
I provide spiritual care for dying people and being so close to death on a daily basis makes me cherish my aliveness. A dear friend of mine recently died in the middle of his own fantastic life and his sudden death now infuses my aliveness. Death is the unmentionable reality informing our lives. Let us all be amazed by that fact. And let us remember, as often as we can, that we are here, This is Happening. Right now. We’re alive!
From the fires of love,
Celia
This and That
Dearest Readers,
The other night I was getting ready for bed with my 7-year old nephew who was visiting for the weekend and we had the most profound conversation while brushing our teeth in front of the mirror.
“Isn’t it amazing how we can look into a flat piece of glass and see ourselves doing the exact thing that we’re doing right now in perfect clarity?” I asked him.
“Yeah!” he replied with delight, “And how do our eyes even see everything?” he asked with genuine amazement.
“I don’t know!” I exclaimed.
“And who even invented words?” he went on.
“I don’t even know!” I replied.
“And how is this flat glass,” he said, motioning to the mirror, “Made from sand? How do you heat sand and get glass?”
I laughed and shook my head. He ran his electric toothbrush through his grinning mouth. We were both in a state of awe about How Things Come To Be.
What a joyful state. Taking time to experience this kind of childlike wonder is one of life’s great pleasures. It is truly a spiritual experience.
As an interspiritual person, I draw my inspiration from a number of traditions to get that kind of joy. One is astrophysics and I am a big fan of Neil deGrasse Tyson, the astrophysicist and television host, and am currently reading his book Astrophysics For People in a Hurry. It is full of hard-science facts like, “Every one of our body’s atoms is traceable to the big bang,” [p.33] and humble admissions such as “astrophysicists have no idea how the cosmos came into existence.”
[p.32, p17]
In Tyson’s broad-minded view, “accepting our kinship with
all life on earth is a soaring spiritual experience.” (Cosmos, Episode 2, 27:25)
I also follow Thomas Keating, a Trappist monk and brilliant spiritual teacher whom I had the great pleasure of meeting at St. Benedict’s monastery
in Snowmass, Colorado. (As I write this, Fr Thomas is very close to
death.) He, too, is a lover of science and feels strongly that religion
has to listen to science because science is giving us up-to-date
information about who and what God is. By Keating’s definition, God is
“Is-ness”.
Yogic philosophy also informs my spirituality. I teach yoga and bring
the spiritual teachings to my classes as well as sharing the physical
practice. This weekend I will be leading a workshop called Yoga, Meditation and Self-Realization.
Self-realization is waking up to who we really are. “We are stardust
brought to life,” writes Tyson [p.33]. Our very essence is Cosmic.
Whatever you choose to call that Essence, be it God or the Universe or
All, It is the very nature of who we are. I Am That.
But even though I Am That, I still have to be this human being. I still
have to be Celia on a daily basis. I am a person with a busy mind and an
imperfect body. Self-realization, or enlightenment, in my view, doesn’t
mean sitting on a cloud. It means understanding that even though we may
not be our busy minds and imperfect bodies we nevertheless have to live with them both.
How do we do that? How do we hold both truths that we are human and we are this Cosmic Oneness?
It takes practice. And willingness. It’s easier to shut down the truth
of who we are and just grit the teeth and get this
business-of-being-human over with. But look how much we’re suffering.
When we bring the reality of our inter-connectedness into our individual
realities our perception will change. If we are not separate from one
another or from the Creative Force of Life then why would we ever hurt
each other? We would only be hurting ourselves.
“How do our eyes even see everything?” When my nephew asked that
question with such sincerity and openness, he was in a state of wonder.
He was also self-realizing. There is something else going on here.
We are participating in an astounding phenomenon we call Existence. And
we are not doing so in isolation from one another. The more we awaken
to this truth, the deeper our human healing will be.
From the fires of love,
Celia